Abandonment

I keep asking myself the question, "What next? What am I supposed to be doing next?"

I look up to God and go, "Where do you want me to go?"

Except, every option I can think of seems too.... outrageous. Too dangerous. Pretty darn crazy. And even... a little idiotic. Surely, I should go the safe and certain way, right?

Right?

But then again, am I following a safe God?

So I pray this prayer of abandonment:

“I abandon myself into your hands;
do with me what you will.
Whatever you may do, I thank you:
I am ready for all, I accept all.

Let only your will be done in me,
And in all your creatures-
I wish no more than this, O Lord.

Into your hands I commend my soul:
I offer it to you with all the love of
my heart,
for I love you, Lord, and so need to give myself, 
to surrender myself into your hands 
without reserve,
and with boundless confidence,
for you are my Father."